people.

all people care about is putting others down to make themselves feel better.

well, i know for a FACT.

that i would rather have one true friend that i can trust, then a bunch of fake friends.

hmm

1. i la la la love my book. ;]
2. she likes you, she really does.
3. YOU GOT THIS GIRL. We're almost in college, just hold on.
4. JR CELSKI, i love you. haha
5. I do not know what to do about youuu. But then again, do i ever?
6. SAT is coming up, ahhhh.
7. i miss Sarah. I miss alot of 09 people. =/
8. School year is slowing down, no....
9. ha people can keep talkin trash, their opinions don't stop me.

i had to write this.

Nick Deleon was asked..

Personality or looks?

He said,"Personality .. looks will always be the bait.. but personality is the line that keeps pullin you in.."

Profound.

"In life, people tend to wait for good things to come to them. And by waiting, they miss out. Usually, what you wish for doesn't fall in your lap, it falls somewhere nearby, and you have to recognize it, stand up, and put in the time and work it takes to get it. This isn't because the universe is cruel. It's because the universe is smart. It has its own ___-___ theory and knows we don't appreciate things that fall into our laps."

JR Celski

JR, you are so fine. haha i could watch you speed skate all day + that Philippine flag tattoo on your chest, damn ;]

"even the wise man dwells in the fool's paradise. "

the game.

"If you keep doing what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always gotten."

You can't stop the future.
You can't rewind the past
The only way to learn the secret ..is to press play.

someone close said this to me.

"i think you are perfect for him but i don't think he is perfect for you. i think you are what he needs, but not what he wants. he is what you want, not necessarily what need."

a big one.

a big earthquake is headin' our way, i can feel it. i'm scared "/

i believe

that things happen for a reason.

Dom & I.

We tend to wear our hearts, on our sleeves.

i love taylor swift.

"FEARLESS' is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want all over again... even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for the things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry," and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourselfto cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright, that's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS."

on my mind.

1) i miss Sarah, ALOT. =/ spring break is too far away.
2) Jane, thanks for making me feel better in the little things you do.
3) SAT, i'm gonna kick your ass.
4) Just keep pushing through.
5) Hope girls win tonight.

theday

the day started off really well, then it turned bad as it progressed.

Good
1) Jane and I are going on the government trip. Si por Nueva York!
2) Thanks Dom for unknowingly making my day better. (He's all yours Jane, haha btw.)
3) Lunch was good, got my letterman for my leather jacket
4) Woahhh, earthquake? Sorry Timothy that the whole class thought it was you walking. HAHAHA!
5) I love working for Mr. Harter.
6) My class jacket looks so good!
7) Basketball game
8) Home sweet home.
Bad
1) ___ , i do so much for you. Can't you appreciate it, you just have to understand some times. Sorry though, don't mean to take it out on you!! i just need space in the middle of the month. HAHA
2) ____, why the hell would you do that? Do you have no sense? Why would you steal that from her?
3) ____, why would you cover your "friends" mistakes? He wronged you too and yet you think its okay?
4) __ _____, i really did not appreciate watching a stupid video i couldn't even see about Walt Whitman.
5) _____, sometimes you just don't understand me. Its like i get it, you want attention but sometimes i just don't want to talk to you, because i don't feel like talking to my guy friends.
6) ____, dude, just tell me straight up if you wanted to go hang out with your lover instead, i'm your friend, i understand. but don't ditch me and say "i'm in a gang" wtf is that?
7) ___ eleven years is a long time. but to me, you're just my friend. so don't relapse, cause i'm not gonna be there to pick you back up, .. as more than a friend anyways.
8) _____ , do you not know that plaid isn't black and it doesn't go with everything? HAHAH


i know Jane is gonna know all these people. hahahah i love that.

.

Is what i am hearing legit?

i hate

this time of the year, because everything tends to slow down.
school gets slower cause you just want it to end already.

can't wait til summer, government trip!!!

NEW YORK twice in 2 months!!! woooooooo ;]

=)

thank you Jane for being my valentine and for coming to my house to drop off a rose, chocolates and a note. Your note is so much better than some lame ass card cause you wrote it yoursself. i love you so much.

Happy Valentines Day =]

btw

i'm gonna be 18 in seven months! i am counting down. hahahaha

?

dude, why the hell would you do that?
sometimes you just don't think.
sometimes you just don't listen to others.
ugh, man. i really wanted to hang out with you and him.
fcccccckkkkkkkkkkk. You're suppose to make a good impression. Wow, you are so unbelievable

other than that.
chilling with Jane, Max, Joaquin, Marc, Dylan, Fern, Kyle, and Matt was alot of fun.
Wish Jon could have came. =/
Thanks guys.

=]

sleepover with my bfff, Jane Kwon!

hero.

i love you, mom.


Thank you, for all of your unconditional love. You do so much for me every single day. You always go the extra mile and you always go more than 212. You are amazing and i am so glad that God blessed me with you as my mom. You do so much for dad and me. I hope that someday i can give back to you and more, what you have given to me in my life. I thank God for you everyday. Thank you for your support in everything i choose to do. You are my backbone and i don't know what i would do without you in my life. Mostly, you are my mom and also my best friend. I thank you a million times for every single little thing and i thank you for your love. I love you, mom.

idiot.

i just had to write about this because i am so stupid. haha

left work, Mr. Harters room, and went home. Pulled up in the driveway, got out of the car and realized i didn't have my backpack. So i drove back to school and ran back to Mr. Harters room to see if Dee Dee was still there next door so that she could open the door for me. So while i was running my shoe came off and i kept running like ten feet before i realized i had no shoe and i turned around to get it and i almost tripped. So put back on my shoe and ran to her room so that she could open the door. She opened the door and there is my lovely backpack sitting on a desk.

good day.

10 things i hate about you. (movie)

"I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick. It even makes me rhyme.
I hate it... I hate the way you're always right. i hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh; Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around. And the fact that you didn't call,

But mostly, I hate the way, I don't hate you;

Not even close; Not even a little bit; Not even at all."

"You want a key that can open every lock. But you don't want a lock, that can be opened by every key. "

-Chandler Yen.

thinking.

I just thought about everything that has happened the last few years and it just made me realize something, even though i have lost friends, i have also gained alot of new friends. Even though i have done bad things in the past, i learned from it. Even though i got grounded alot in the past, its almost been a year now of "ground free." Even though i have lost my parents trust in the past, i have restored it and now their trust in me is even stronger than before. I have learned from everything that has happened and from the things that i have done. Even though i've had some difficult months that i thought i would never survive, i did. Looking back on everything; the drama, the fighting, the misbehaving, the sneaking out, the partying.
i am thankful, because it helped me to become who i am today.
I learned that fighting with my parents would never get me anywhere and it definitely does not show how much appreciation i have for them. So now, i'm a whole different person. Fighting with my parents just isn't my thing. Yes, we do not always agree on the same thing but hey, i'm willing to swallow up my pride and just say sorry, because i love them. Wow just thinking about it, last year was a tough year but you know what? i learned self control from my experiences. i learned to be mature. i learned that partying isn't a life.
overall, i guess i finally learned to just, grow up.

-akf.

Head.

All these thoughts running in my head.

1. thank you for being you, i truly appreciate you.
2. both of you do so much for me, sorry for being a pain at times. i love you both.
3. why does puc have to be so far away? can't wait til spring break.
4. philippines, i miss it. why? because you are there. i miss you alot.
5. things are still not the same, getting better though. hope it only gets better from here.

pinsan

i miss you so much.

i hate that you live so far away.

i miss you, Philippines.

my goal.

1750+

come on Alexa, you got this.

bfff.

This made my week.

"10 reasons why you kick ass."

You wrote eleven [=

1. your straight up!

2. your fun to be around and you know how to have fun
3. you don't do something because someone else is you do it cuz you want to
4. your a good listener
5. when i come for advice you know exactly what to say
6. your not fake at all
7. you know whats good for me
8. you know what im thinking without me telling you
9. your always there when i need you and you don't ditch me for new friends
10. you always stand up for me when ppl are mean to me
11. you have all the qualities of a best friend

:] LOVE YOU! -Jane. & I love you too Jane, thank you.

meet my man.

shannon brown.

looks like we've got

rain.

This is my life in,

just a few more years...

beach house, dogs, longboarding, ocean, sunset.

fml.

why am i such an ass?

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i just want to scream.

i cried, i can't believe myself.

i'm crying, i can't believe myself, again.

i'm sorry, i am really really sorry.

Babyyyy

You know you love me

I know you care

And I would never, not be there

You are my love

You are my heart

And we would never, ever, ever be apart

Are we an item?
Girl quit playin'
We're just friends,
What are you sayin'
Take another look right in my eyes
My first love, touch my heart for the first time

And now I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo

I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo

I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo

I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

For you, I would have done whatever

And ya stick it with me when we're together

And I'm gonn' play it cool While I'm losin you

I'll buy you anything

I'll buy you any ring

Cause I'm in pieces

Baby fix me

Come see if you wake me from this bad dream

I'm goin down, down, down

Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo
I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

You can give me all of your love

Once a time it wont be enough

Nobody told me this day would come

Now I'm all gone

You can give me all of your love

Once a time it wont be enough

Nobody told me this day would come

I wa- I was like Baby, baby, baby noo

I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo

I'm like Baby, baby, baby noo

I thought you'd always be mine (mine).

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

the whole situation makes me laugh so hard.

mhmmm.

Nate, i totally understand you, more than one million percent.

Jane, thank you for everything.

Sarah, i miss your face.

God, i love you.

You.

I wish that you could see how much you really deserve. You deserve better than her and you need to let it go. 3 years man? I know that is a really long time and it is going to be a long process but you have to start. There are so many people out there. You have to let yourself be open to meeting them. You are so afraid that you are going to be lonely if you don't stick to who you are stuck on, but the fact is, you are going to be lonely if you don't let yourself let go on the person you are currently stuck on. I can't even explain to you how much you deserve and how amazing you are. I hope that you would just have confidence in yourself. She isn't treating your right, you know that, i know that, we all know that. So don't keep putting up with it. If she finally likes you sooner or later then you'll just have to face that when the time comes but til then don't keep hanging on to her. Like i told you today, like some genius person told me coming back from bible camp (but for you, its her instead of him). "The reason you can't get over him is because you think that he is the best you can get, when i know you can do so much better." Larry was right, and so i'm giving you the same advice. You can do so much better because honestly, you can. You need someone who appreciates for you and who won't take you for granted. You need someone who won't leave you anytime they feel like it then come crawling back to you when things don't go their way. Trust me, it will be a long process but you can do this. You know you can do this, i know you can do this, we all know you can do this and we all have your back. You know i am always here for you whenever you need, just text or call me. Or if you see me at school just call out my name and i'll drop whatever i am doing. You deserve someone who is completely compatible with you and won't keep you in the "friend zone." because any girl would be lucky have you by her side.