Busy busy busy

i love being busy, it keeps my mind off of things.

But then again, relaxing is just as nice.

This is my life:

SA Resource Manager officer.

Honors National Society Member.

TOMS club member.

Volleyball, when in season.

SAT class.

TA worker.

Homework.

Band, can't wait for NY trip!

Volunteer service worker.

So much to do and the time is flying.

This made my day.

Ms. Phillips: "You need to buy the compatibility test on monday from me."

Me: Why?

"Because you are the most compatible girl in the whole highschool."

Seriously?

"Yeah, I was looking through all of the guys' papers and you are on almost all of them."

Really?

"Yeah, that's why you have to buy it so we can see who your number one is."

Uh oh.

I love my family.

Just some Questions.

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I would probably be seventeen, i love my age.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying, because you if you atleast try, even though there is a chance that you may fail there is also a chance that you may succeed. So what do you think? Would you rather have a chance of succeeding or not trying at all.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Very good question. I think it's because we take things for granted and we think that we have so much time to do what we want later. Why? Lets do what we love now.

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Not neccessarily. But to me, i do what i say i'm going to do.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
I would want to change the mindset of those who believe that killing others is good, because honestly, its not.

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
The work that has to do with spending time with those who i love the most and helping those in need.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Even though we learned from a mistake it doesn't mean that that mistake didn't cause hardship or even a broken heart. One doesn't want to go back to what they faced after making a mistake thats why we often try to not make another one.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I would take more risks and go on more adventures.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
Just now.

What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
I love the people and things that make me truly happy, such as God, family and friends.
Yes, i always show those who i care about how much i love them.

Thank You God.

I love you both.

Thank you for everything that you both do.

You mean the world to me.

I don't know what i would do without

either of you in my life. You both keep

me sane. You both understand me when no one else does. You both always have my back and you both never leave me. I appreciate both of you and i appreciate everything that you both have done for me, are doing, and will do. From the bottom of my heart, i can't even put into words to express how thankful to God i am that he brought you into my life Jane and that you, Sarah are my cousin. I am so blessed to be able to share my life

with both of you. You both are my sisters and i love how i can come to both of you for any problems or situations i am in or i have. You both are absolutely amazing.

Sarah, I miss you SO much. I wish you were here because i really need you. I can't wait to see you love. Jane, Thank you for being an amazing best friend. I have more than 1000% of trust in you. You are a sister to me and my parents already consider you another daughter along with Sarah and me. Both of you,

I love you both so much, i can't even begin or put into words how much you honestly,

mean to me. Thank you for giving your friendship and love.

love drunk.

"I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover. I love you forever, but now I'm sober.

...So don't call me crying, say hello then goodbye."

Hello,

You seriously make me want t0 ____. I can't ____ my ____ _____ would do this to me. How could ____? Don't ___ even ____? We ___ to __ so ____. But ___ everything is ___. I ____ the ____ _____ were. We ___ to laugh and ___ some good _____. We always had each ____ _____. But i guess ____ ______. I've _____ you for ____ _____. And you've only ____ ____ for ____ _____. Why couldn't ____ just ____ ____ to ____. I don't even know what to say, i am left speechless.

I'm not giving in.

Goodbye.

This goes out to YOU.

You are one of the best guys at school. All of us support you more than 1000%. We are here for you and we have SO much confidence in you, you just have to have more confidence in yourself. Look at what you did at Bible camp, think about it. If we would've went 2 years ago or even a year ago would you have gone out like you did up there? No, you probably would've hidden your amazing talent. You are so good and we all know it, you just have to know that you are awesome, yourself.

Like i told you today, you have to begin with yourself. You have to know what you want for yourself. If she is really the one that you want then you should go for her, but you should be sure first, don't be unsure then sure. If you say that she is the same as you like she likes you sometimes then doesn't, then for sure you can't be the same too. You have to know what YOU want. It's not good to have both people unsure about what they want, how are you going to get anywhere with that? If you enjoy being around her and she makes you truly happy then definitely, go for it. You deserve THE BEST and only the best. You know how to treat girls well and now it's your turn to find someone who will treat you the same or even better, because again, that's what you deserve, the best. You have an amazing personality and any girl would be lucky to even get a chance to hang out with you let alone go out with you. She just go with your heart and your mind. Just go with what you are feeling and what you really want, if she is what you really want, then don't deprive your heart the happiness it deserves. But like you told me "You have to separate the logical side from the emotional side."

Last of all, you have your friends for support, including me. If you ever need anything like if you want to vent or even just talk about it then know that i am here for you. Like i said before and like i will say a million times more just so you will get this in your head, You are an amazing guy. I can't even put into words how amazing you are and how i am so thankful that you are on of my friends. I know we joke around alot and sometimes we are mean to each other but i know that in the end i can always come to you for advice or anything and i thank you.

You are the best guy. No one even compares to you. This goes out to YOU.

oh.

ya ya ya ya ya.

Dude, i miss Bible camp so much. It was so worth it. I never got to write about it, so i'll write about it now. It was an amazing experience. I definitely feel that God is closer to me. I guess that i got the Jesus high? You could say. Meeting new people and making new friendships was tons of fun. The snow was so amazing even though i slipped and fell a bunch of times. I still absolutely loved it. It was so great to get out of this routine of school, work, home. Just getting out and hanging out with new people not just the same old crowd. I definitely feel closer to God, like super close and i hope that this feeling doesn't go away. <3 I am for sure going back again next year, as a leader.

Travel.

i miss traveling. Even though i just came back from the Philippines, i miss it so much. I love getting away from all of the crazy madness that goes on here.

I've been to:

About 30 of the states in the U.S.

Italy
France
Germany
Switzerland
China
Philippines<3
Canada
Mexico

Can't wait til i go to:

Korea and Japan! So exciteddd!

after all this time

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"Some people are meant to stay in your life forever. Others are just meant to make an appearance."

I guess you were just meant to make an appearance. That is too
bad because I am really gonna miss you in my life.

Just like the other one, you didn't care enough about our friendship to save it. I definitely know, that you know, that your reasoning for it, isn't right. I've thought of you as friend for a long time now, so i have no idea why you said what you said. I honestly can't believe you, you make me want to cry.

Good friend.

"If you are going to put the fire out then put it out.

If you are going to keep the fire lit then keep it lit.
But don't try and keep the fire burning by trying to save some coals for later.
You just have to close the lid on it."

Greg Lai

Not even.

Wow, i didn't even say a word. All i did was write in my blog about my business and you read it and decided to comment on it and tell me what i should do when you don't even know me at all. So actually i didn't do anything. But whatever, lets just not talk about it or comment about it anymore, it's a waste of time.

miss this.

This is what i really miss...

Just being with family, being away from the country, from california, from reality, from the people that love and hurt you the most.

Soundtrack 2 My Life.

"I've got some issues that nobody can see, and all of these
emotions are pourin' outta me, I bring them to the

light for you, it's only right this

is the soundtrack to my life."

-Kid Cudi.

Thank you.

"Not only do you deserve to have someone that will tell you they're changing targets, but you deserve someone even better--you deserve someone that won't change targets.You deserve someone that will love you unconditionally and will treat you with nothing but the utmost respect. He'll hold the door open just so that his eyes never leave you. He'll take the long route just because it means he gets to hold your hand that much longer. He'll wake up with you as his first thought and he'll sleep with you as his last thought, all the while dreaming about the next time he gets to see you. He'll never have a bad day if he sees you because you make him happy. He'll brush his teeth eight times a day to make sure his teeth are white, because he can't help but smile whenever he sees you. He'll feel his heart race just at the thought of spending time with you, and he'll leave all his friends if it means he gets to be alone with you. He'll want to eat at popular restaurants just so that he can show as many people as possible that he has a beautiful girl on his arm. And he'll stay up late thinking about you, and everything you've done for him, and just how wonderful his life is because you're a part of it.You deserve someone like that, Alexa."

"You're not a sidenote, Alexa. And you're not the caption. You're the headline."

Thank you, Nathaniel Morlock.

People say all these mixed versions of this to me. But you said it straight up. This is exactly what i needed to hear.

I appreciate you.

It's hard waiting around for something that you know might never happen,
but it's even harder to give up especially when its everything you ever wanted.

Haven't we all been through this before?

"I've never told anyone that before." -Summer

"I guess i'm just not anybody." -Tom

(500) Days of Summer.

I can't get over that movie.

College.

i am so sick, of the same usual stuff that goes on. Day after day after day. Nothing is new. Some things come up, some things are fun. I do admit i have some pretty awesome times. But i want a change. I want more things that are unexpected. I can't wait til college and all the new things that will be happening. I'll be free to do whatever i want, not that i will take advantage of that, but it's still nice to know i can go out wherever and see whoever, whenever. I can't wait for the feeling of new challenges. New teachers. New faces. New relationships. New guys. I'm sick of the guys here, none of them are different. Atleast none of them have showed me that they are different from the previous one. I need someone new, someone who's actually good for me. These are just a few reasons why i am so excited for college. Of course i will miss my friends, I'll still be seeing them around. I already got my roommate ;]

No one knows what love really is.

i love this movie.

(500) Days of Summer.

A New Year.

So its time to start fresh right? Wrong.
Just because its a new year, it doesn't mean that the same people don't fall into the same patterns and habits they had the year before, and the year before that. Just because its a new year it doesn't mean that your brain is gonna click and be like "alright, now i'm changing." Why do you have to wait for a new year to come? Why don't you just change ....

now.

So for me i'm changing.

1. I'm sorry, i was wrong. It was stupid.

2. I am over YOU. haha i feel so happy to say it.

3. Thank you family, for everything.

4. Jane, love youuu.