I know

I know that you're not leaving me behind. But it still feels that way. I miss you so much. Long distance seriously sucks. =/ It's really hard not having you around, i feel that you are moving on to new things, even though that's the case in some ways, i know its not the case for our relationship but it just feels like we don't have time for one another, like we do but then we don't. We have to squeeze in time wherever we can. I miss summer and just being with you. I don't want to lose you.

"Love."

Love, isn't just a word you can just go throw around.
You have to actually understand the true meaning of it and feel it within you.
You have to actually know the person before you can say you love/ed them.
You didn't know that person.
You didn't love that person.
You "think" or "thought" you did.
But you didn't.

It really hit me hard today.

That life can change at any given moment.

So make a positive impact on people's lifes. Never be afraid to just go for what you want. Love with all that you have.

You never know when everything you got will be taken away from you.

Dear God,

For the past two years it seems like you have been absent in my life. There have been amazing times where i think to myself, wow God is truly great and good. Last year, my Kuya Felbin was taken from my family because of something we don't even understand today. Now today.. my Ate and Manong are gone too. I won't be able to see them around and at family reunions. Janelle is in critical condition. God, please please PLEASE pull her through. I love her so much. She is very important to me, she is part of my family. She needs to have a full life. She needs to go on and do great things. God, all i ask is that she comes home healthy and safely. I love you God and i reallllllly need you right now. Please keep all of my family safe. I'll be praying to you.

-Alexa

i seriously

believe that my life couldn't get any better.

Weeellll.... actually. If we didn't have Stone or Profe, then yeah it would.